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Name: amy
Location: Georgia
Birthday: 1/27/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: MUSIC.. wowza.. guys that wear pink.. guys that wear girls jeans, "emo kids" mohawks, christians that are punk, hxc, whatnot.. lip rings *w0w*,
Expertise: being random and lazy
Occupation: Retired
Industry: Hospitality
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  xxxs0tyxxx
Member Since:
6/26/2004
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| flippin yay! nicholas is homeeeee. well home as in valdumpster. heh.. but yay!! wooooo! okay. yeah.
hahah i definately took double my medicine today. and it worked in
reverse. hahahahah. at first i was like omg omg omg cause i've
never accidentally OD'd or wutever but it wasnt as bad as i thot.
woooooooo. ill be bouncin off the walls for a couple more hours. 
bleh i hate it when.. "soandso" talks about what/how much they're
drinking or wutever. i mean okay ill try not to be upset or wutever
that they're drinkin now, cause they couldnt before in the
situation/place the were. but bleh. they dont have to tell me
everything. i dont wanna know. and they know i dont like alcohol,
drugs, etc.. so i guess its better that they're tellin me and not
keepin it a secret.. bleh.. they're kinda clueless sometimes.. rawr.
soandso's a really friggin awesome person. i really like what/who they
are. but sometimes they can be an ass.. not to me at all but to other
people and i jsut dont wanna know what you did to whoever you hate
today. i really like them n all i dont wanna let em go. 'n i dont wanna
hear about all the stuff they're doin that i hate, but i cant tell 'em
to stop. i just put up with it cause i dont want them to go. bleh. like
at first i was totally crazy for them or wutever but like now.. i
duno.. i still care about them with all my frigun heart but its just
not the same feeling. bleh. like right now we're talkin and im a happy
kid cause he isnt talkin about bad stuff. liek when he isnt talkin
about stuff i dun like im really happy n stuff. yeah. its awesome. but
when its the other way im not. at all. bleh. wutever.. i update more
later if i feel like it.
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| i still havent talked to nick..
omgosh im so friggin nervous/scared/idk... i hope he is okay.. 
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In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)
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hmm.. so yeah.. today..
last night i went to bed with the thought that "tomorrow is nick's last
day of work.. and he has VAST amounts of flammable liguids and
materials that he plans on using/blowing up." dear lord. im thinkin "ya
know, it'd be SLIGHTLY awesome if you could come home in one piece..
MAYBE 2.. but. yeah nicholas james that'd be grand."
my mom told me she had a dentist appt. at 7am the next day and
she had to be up and ready to go by 6:45. hmm.. yeah.. 6:30 rolls
around.. my alarm has been goin off for like 30 minutes and..i decide
to get up.. so i got up, brushed my teeth, washed my face, etc. i head
downstairs and i begin to realize that i dont hear any noise coming
from anywhere in my house. "oh crap!" my mom is asleep on the couch. i
was so mad. "MOM! it is SIX FOURTYFIVE GET UP!" i dont think i have
seen her move that fast in a loooong time.
the night before i had asked her if she would call my dad and ask him
to bring the clothes that i left at his house and if she wouldnt mind
making the orange juice [the concentrated crap] because i was craving
it like maddness.. [omgersh i love OJ w/ ice.... \m/ killer \m/] so
obviously she had not done any of the above and OH yeah. she was
supposed to get my perscpription filled the day before too. HMPH. and
if any of you know me well enough, me - my medication = omfg get the
bunjee {sp?} cords, cause this child is bouncing off the walls or im
flat out dead asleep.
so yeah, no medication, no food or oj, no clothes, nick is about to
blow himself up, the weather is discusting, i didnt do my rough draft
for LA. [oh and btw, the final draft is due tomorrow.. and i havent
done it], progress reports come out today.. my medication sorta
makes me not tired and it supresses my appetite a lil [its just a side
effect, im not trying to loose weight. LOL] so without it i was friggin
hungry as a billy goat and something shiney distracted me every 2.375
seconds. hahahaha. my mom ended up bringing my medicine to school
[secretly] but by the time i got it it was already 4th period. so it
was slightly useless. after school i like to hang around the theatre n
stuff. cause the theatre kids are kool and mike is friggin
funny.wooooo. but they were actually doing stuff today and so i was
slightly annoyed.. n yeah.. i walked home wiff my MCR blasting in my
ears. lol i had trouble walking cause the beat of the song would
throw me off. it was kinda funny. oooh yeah, i've also been sick for
what.. like 2 weeks now. it SUCKS. it'll be another month n a half
before my mom takes me to the doc. i have been asking her to take me to
the doc since liek may of last year for all kinds of other shit. and it
scares the crap out of me. because i KNOW i am not healthy. i am 99%
sure i am HIGHLY anemic [because most vegetarians are]
blehdh;fldsjf;sd i cant remember the last time i actually went a
day where i felt awesome. or even good. RAWR. shoot me now, please!!
heh. now that its passed. it doesnt seem like much. but at the time. omg i wanted to hurt someone.... you know how that is.. dur
***i am a hyper-sensitive person who doesnt give a shit. [i'll have a
nervous breakdown over spilled milk and blink at my future [grades,
college, job, life, etc...] while someone else gets a mop and a new
life for me (yeah.. right)]***
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| * Your gender: female
* Straight/Gay/Bi: Straight
* Single?: yes
* If not, do you want to be?: bleh.. i duno
* Birthdate: jan 27
* Your age: 18
* Age you act: whatever age i wanna act
* Age you wish you were: 8
* Your height: 5'5
* Eye color: green
* Happy with it?: yeah
* Hair color: Brown/pink
* Happy with it?: yeh
* Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: lefty
* Your living arrangement: with mid madre
* Have any pets?: 2dogs
* What's your job?: professional slacker
* Piercings?: ears
* Tattoos?: no
* Obsessions?: music
* Addictions?: music, internet
* Do you speak another language?: Spanish
* Have a favorite quote?: probly
* Do you have a webpage?: uhm besides this.. no
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
* Do you live in the moment?: not really.. i think about stuff too much
* Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: bleh.. sometimes
* Do you have any secrets?: yes
* Do you hate yourself?: sometimes
* Do you like your handwriting?: NO
* Do you have any bad habits?: yes
* What is the compliment you get from most people?: funny.. crazy
* If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: hidden in her own shadow
* What's your biggest fear?: falling
* Can you sing?: i dont like my vioce.. but people say i can..
* Are you a loner?: yep
* What are your #1 priorities in life?: finding my true love
* If you were another person, would you be friends with you?:probly not
* Are you a daredevil?: no
* Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: yes. [and im not telling you!!]
* Do you have a journal?: somewhat
* Do you think you are emotionally strong?: no
* Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: doing- relationships not doing- realtionships
* Do you think life has been good so far?: not really
* What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?:idk
* What do you like the most about your body?: anything hidden
* And least?: lots
* Do you think you are good looking?: Semi
* Are you confident?: no
* What is the fictional character you are most like?: no clue
* Are you perceived wrongly?: yes
Do You...
* Smoke?: no
* Do drugs?: no
* Read the newspaper?: no
* Pray?: yes
* Go to church?: not as much as i should
* Talk to strangers who IM you?: sometimes
* Sleep with stuffed animals?: yep
* Take walks in the rain?: i like to play in it, but its more fun wiff a mate
* Talk to people even though you hate them?: depends
* Drive?: bleh
* Like to drive fast?: no
Would or Have You Ever?
* Liked your voice?: no
* Hurt yourself?: yes
* Been out of the country?: yes
* Eaten something that made other people sick?: no
* Been in love?: define love
* Gone skinny dipping?: no
* Had a medical emergency?: yes
* Had surgery?: no
* Ran away from home?: not really
* Played strip poker?: sorta?
* Gotten beaten up?: not really
* Beaten someone up?: not technically
* Been picked on?: yes, all the time
* Been on stage?: yes
* Slept outdoors?: yup
* Thought about suicide?: yes
* Pulled an all nighter?: yes
* If yes, what is your record?:2 or 3 days
* Gone one day without food?: yeah
* Talked on the phone all night?: not really.. i hate callin people
* Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: yes
* Slept all day?: yes
* Killed someone?: mwahahhahaha..okay.. no
* Made out with a stranger?: no O.o
* Had sex with a stranger?: no
* Thought you're going crazy?: my pic is by the definition
* Kissed the same sex?: no
* Done anything sexual with the same sex?: No
* Been betrayed?: yes 
* Had a dream that came true?: dont think so
* Met a famous person?: yes, a few
* Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: yes
* On purpose?: well, i am a vegetarian, but wasnt in the past.. so yea.. but didnt kill it wiff my own hands
* Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: yes
* Stolen anything?: not really
* Been on radio/tv?: yes
* Been in a mosh-pit?: yep
* Had a nervous breakdown?: way too many
* Bungee jumped?: no!
* Had a dream that kept coming back?: yes
Beliefs
* Belive in life on other planets?: not sure
* Miracles?: yes
* Astrology?: hmmmm
* Magic?: no
* God?: yes
* Satan?: yes
* Santa?: ol' st nick!!!
* Ghosts?: no
* Luck?: yes
* Love at first sight?: yes
* Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: no
* Witches?: no
* Easter bunny?: no
* Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: not really
* Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: heh yes! [not]
* Do you wish on stars?: yes
Deep Theological Questions
* Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: yes
* Do you think God has a gender?: idk
* Do you believe in organized religion?: yes
* Where do you think we go when we die?: where we deserve
Friends
* Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yes
* Who is your best friend?: no one
* name one person that knows most about you: duno.. gina or my mom
* What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: idk
* Your favorite inside joke?: gina and i had a bunch..
* Thing you're picked on most about?: my wierdness
* Who's your longest known friend?: lynn i guess
* Talking to? myself.. O.o lol joking
* Newest?: mike 
* Shyest?: quintin
* Funniest?: mike is hillarious.. and abba is right up there
* Sweetest?: julie or lynn
* Closest?: not sure.. but maybe lynn
* Weirdest?: me or mike
* Smartest?: nick s.
* Ditziest?: missy
* Last person you talked to online?: mom
* Who do you talk to most online?: nick
* Who do you trust most?: not really anyone
* Who listens to your problems?: lynn, my mom, or my erm.. wall
* Who do you fight most with?: mom
* Who's the nicest?: julie or bradford
* Who's the most outgoing?: nick
* Who's the best singer?: kathryn
* Who's on your shit-list?: quite a few
* Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: yea
* Who's your second family?: my CD collection
* Do you always feel understood?: nope
* Who's the loudest friend?: me
* Do you trust others easily?: yep.. 
* Who's house were you last at?: im a homebody
* Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: anyone who will protect me
* Do your friends know you?: if they didnt. they wouldnt be friends
* Friend that lives farthest away: nick is currently in iraq
Love and All That
* Do you consider love a mistake?: sometimes
* What do you find romantic?: telling me im beautiful when i look my worst, unconditional love
* Turn-on?: eyes, hair, face
* Turn-off?: bad hygene
* First kiss?: not telling
* Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: knowing.. dur
* Have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out: yes
* Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: sometimes
* What's the last present someone gave you?: my b-day present from nick
Right This Moment...
* Are you going out?: no
* Will it be with your significant other?: no
* Or some random person?: no
* What are you wearing right now?: jeans and rock my world tee
* What are you worried about right now?: an infinity of things
* What book are you reading?: none
* What's on your mousepad?: hard rock cafe..
* Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: cold, sick, worried, not motivated, careless
* Are you bored?: yes
* Are you tired?: emotionaly, and physically
* Are you talking to anyone online?: no
* Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: i dont like calling people..
* Are you lonely or content?: as lonely as a spoon in with the knifes
* Are you listening to music?: yes
* Are you watching tv? no
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